Written By Valencia
Oct. 6, 2019, 4:01 p.m.(12/19/1011 AR)
That glorious, rich power that comes from deep within and propels you to greater and more beautiful things. Gods, I love it!
No matter what you want to do with your life, be passionate.
~~~~<~<@
Written By Dariel
Oct. 6, 2019, 3:59 p.m.(12/19/1011 AR)
No watermelons yet thankfully.
Written By Riagnon
Oct. 6, 2019, 3:51 p.m.(12/19/1011 AR)
Relationship Note on Arcadia
Written By Alarissa
Oct. 6, 2019, 3:16 p.m.(12/18/1011 AR)
To write it is to acknowledge it. I need to acknowledge it as much as it hurts. And it hurts. In so many ways.
I have lost most of my left arm and were it not for Reigna, Victus might have lost the rest of me.
I am a fraction of who I was. That is what I feel like despite that others tell me that it does not make me less than. Fever did not take me, we are grateful for that, though my vanity has suffered just as grievously. Somewhere beneath Thrax in cold storage, I am told that the limb cleaved from me unsalvageable, waits for me to decide what to do. My chest tightens when I think of it, so I do not. As I gain strength, I have tried to venture out. But the ego is fragile and more than once i have found my steps bringing me swiftly back to Thrax. To hide in it like a turtle hides in it's shell.
Things that were second nature have to be relearned. It feels infantile to need someone to cut my food for me and yet they have to bring it out already cut because it's not like I can that myself.. It causes me to cry as independence in some things is ripped from me. Despair has been a bedfellow, anger and grief. Reigna speaks to flowers and waves and her finest stitching but I haven't looked. I can't bear to. It feels ugly, surely it will look just as much.
Dresses are being altered or new ones made. I pray that I'll feel comfortable in my own skin as I did before. But I don't know if I have that faith. I don't know if I'm that strong. I doubt. I cringed when the Duchess stared, blithe comments about sacrificing hands in cleansing rituals. I cannot rewind time. But moving forward feels even more impossible.
Written By Willow
Oct. 6, 2019, 3:07 p.m.(12/18/1011 AR)
Relationship Note on Preston
Written By Hadrian
Oct. 6, 2019, 2:23 p.m.(12/18/1011 AR)
Relationship Note on Theron
You've been married to a fine wife, while affording you the opportunity to remain with your family and continue your duties as Sword and more. I am confident that together the pair of you will do wondrous things. Build something together that is truly worthy of worthy memory and recognition for future generations of the Hydra to marvel over.
Don't spoil the opportunity. Hard work was put into making it happen.
Written By Hadrian
Oct. 6, 2019, 2:16 p.m.(12/18/1011 AR)
Relationship Note on Braith
It is my genuine hope that House Mazetti will serve Lady Braith Mazetti and her future as well as she will serve House Mazetti. We wish to know that we are a boon in her life and that as she supports us, we will support her. We count ourselves truly blessed to have her among us and look forward to the numerous successes she will achieve both within and beyond ourselves.
Written By Preston
Oct. 6, 2019, 1:55 p.m.(12/18/1011 AR)
They expressed a view that I had certainty in Gloria's commands to protect the innocent, that I was certain on the righteousness of the Gods and on the evil of the Abyss. They are right, of course. These are truths I hold and on which I base my life, on which I base my decisions. But, I do not have unwavering certainty in myself. It remains important that I always pause for a moment and ask if a path I am on conforms to those certainties. That it is truly one that serves the Gods. Sometimes I have changed my path because of it. Other times I have stopped that journey all together. Many times? I have continued on ahead, with greater confidence that what I do conforms to those certainties, those truths. That what I do answers the will of the Gods. And, in turn, I offer to light the way on that path to others. I cannot give them certainties - only they themselves can decide those - but I can lay out the path I followed, and urge them to join me on my journey. Towards the Gods, for good.
I am sure some will wonder at me speaking of questioning myself, on self reflection. Leap and say 'A ha, the Orthodox child speaks of the Thirteenth'. The Orthodoxy does not deny the Thirteenth, but we also do not think that constant doubt of the absolutes in life serve a purpose other than instability. Yes, we should question ourselves, our purpose, our motives. But we should not question the nature of our society, we should not question why the King should rule, we should not question if the Gods exist, or why we should obey them. There is no answer but the obvious. We must be satisfied with that.
Written By Sparte
Oct. 6, 2019, 1:46 p.m.(12/18/1011 AR)
I think on the promises I made as a younger man, and with the passing of years I see why others were hesitant to take them. So I made those promises to myself. I wonder how keeping them has changed me.
Written By Cambria
Oct. 6, 2019, 1:16 p.m.(12/18/1011 AR)
Written By Evaristo
Oct. 6, 2019, 11:25 a.m.(12/18/1011 AR)
Congratulations to Caspian Wild who won the whole thing, and to Miss Sydney that won People's choice!
I am also excited to say that Death's Crown is coming along nicely, according to Josephine Arcuri. There'll be some sort of event around that, as well. Something fun.
Written By Rysen
Oct. 6, 2019, 11:11 a.m.(12/18/1011 AR)
It is both an agony and relief to watch children rise from the gluttonous belly of a slave ship, who'd been taken from their homes when the slavers cut down their parents, and dragged screaming to an existence of suffering and toil.
Written By Archeron
Oct. 6, 2019, 11:06 a.m.(12/18/1011 AR)
Written By Ida
Oct. 6, 2019, 9:02 a.m.(12/18/1011 AR)
Written By Preston
Oct. 6, 2019, 8:13 a.m.(12/18/1011 AR)
Written By Ras
Oct. 6, 2019, 7:54 a.m.(12/18/1011 AR)
I'm lucky, not just to get paid for work, or sleep in a castle, but cuz there's one I can trust. Always and forever. Straw to the ladder, or whatever. If anyone can do it, he'll dream the way to a happier story.
Written By Sydney
Oct. 6, 2019, 7:50 a.m.(12/18/1011 AR)
The People's Champion tournament concluded, and I had every inkling that I hadn't placed. That much turned out to be very true - but I hadn't counted on enough folks voting for me as favorite to actually turn the tides on people that ... I was just about to write 'people that better deserved it'.
What does one even do with this much money? My debts aren't something that just money can make go away.
A nobleman would laugh at me, I'm sure. The frontrunner Caspian is set to donate his winnings. I nearly choked on my own spit when I heard that. Does that mean that this sorta money's nothin' to him? I want to punch him even harder next year, if not just for that.
*Scribbled in the margins: He's a good egg. I want to punch him in the ring.*
The money - for now, I don't know how to spend it, so I'm gonna take a page out of my own past entries and /not/ spend it until I know how to put it to use that ain't frittering it away.
Written By Cambria
Oct. 6, 2019, 1:55 a.m.(12/17/1011 AR)
Written By Zacharie
Oct. 6, 2019, 1:37 a.m.(12/17/1011 AR)
Relationship Note on Vanora
I still wish I could have protected her from more of the dangers of this world, but all parents do. We must accept that there are limits to our power if not to our affection.
Written By Tikva
Oct. 6, 2019, 1:10 a.m.(12/17/1011 AR)
Relationship Note on Vanora
A poem is just a song whose melody I haven't figured out yet . . .
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