Written By Sydney
Oct. 6, 2019, 7:50 a.m.(12/18/1011 AR)
My hands are shaking even I write this entry. I keep checking the ledger to make sure the number of zeros are correct, keep staring at this dainty hair ornament that looks so entirely out of place on my head, but I've never owned anything even a fraction so shiny.
The People's Champion tournament concluded, and I had every inkling that I hadn't placed. That much turned out to be very true - but I hadn't counted on enough folks voting for me as favorite to actually turn the tides on people that ... I was just about to write 'people that better deserved it'.
What does one even do with this much money? My debts aren't something that just money can make go away.
A nobleman would laugh at me, I'm sure. The frontrunner Caspian is set to donate his winnings. I nearly choked on my own spit when I heard that. Does that mean that this sorta money's nothin' to him? I want to punch him even harder next year, if not just for that.
*Scribbled in the margins: He's a good egg. I want to punch him in the ring.*
The money - for now, I don't know how to spend it, so I'm gonna take a page out of my own past entries and /not/ spend it until I know how to put it to use that ain't frittering it away.
The People's Champion tournament concluded, and I had every inkling that I hadn't placed. That much turned out to be very true - but I hadn't counted on enough folks voting for me as favorite to actually turn the tides on people that ... I was just about to write 'people that better deserved it'.
What does one even do with this much money? My debts aren't something that just money can make go away.
A nobleman would laugh at me, I'm sure. The frontrunner Caspian is set to donate his winnings. I nearly choked on my own spit when I heard that. Does that mean that this sorta money's nothin' to him? I want to punch him even harder next year, if not just for that.
*Scribbled in the margins: He's a good egg. I want to punch him in the ring.*
The money - for now, I don't know how to spend it, so I'm gonna take a page out of my own past entries and /not/ spend it until I know how to put it to use that ain't frittering it away.
Written By Cambria
Oct. 6, 2019, 1:55 a.m.(12/17/1011 AR)
Belief is one of those things that people instinctively recognize, but struggle to describe.
Written By Zacharie
Oct. 6, 2019, 1:37 a.m.(12/17/1011 AR)
Relationship Note on Vanora
My daughter has grown into a fine woman, who wisely still seeks and accepts advice from her father.
I still wish I could have protected her from more of the dangers of this world, but all parents do. We must accept that there are limits to our power if not to our affection.
I still wish I could have protected her from more of the dangers of this world, but all parents do. We must accept that there are limits to our power if not to our affection.
Written By Tikva
Oct. 6, 2019, 1:10 a.m.(12/17/1011 AR)
Relationship Note on Vanora
Thank you!
A poem is just a song whose melody I haven't figured out yet . . .
A poem is just a song whose melody I haven't figured out yet . . .
Written By Vanora
Oct. 6, 2019, 1:08 a.m.(12/17/1011 AR)
Relationship Note on Zacharie
We have always had a relationship that was complicated at best, far more so than even most people have with their parents.
Yet I am finding my father to be a consistent source of wisdom, strength, and support when I need it most.
And he does dote on his grandchildren so.
Yet I am finding my father to be a consistent source of wisdom, strength, and support when I need it most.
And he does dote on his grandchildren so.
Written By Esme
Oct. 6, 2019, 1:04 a.m.(12/17/1011 AR)
Love and duty are not always bed partners; in many ways.
There is the duty we have to our families, but there is also the duty we have to remaining true to ourselves. Some times I think the greatest love that can be found is between friends. Sometimes, those friends come about it from less than ideal situations. It is good to be loved and to love; even if it is not a romantic love.
I have always said and will always say, that I wish for happiness in all that I meet. I do not say this as lip service, but as an ideal of truth. I have courted a notion of my future and it was not one I was expecting to court, but I agreed to let it play out as it will. It has played out and I am so thankful for it. I wish I could express my thankfulness that I feel, but words are not quite the right ones.
I am thankful for the distraction of romance when I needed it.
I am thankful to see a person realize their true self and above all to honor it.
I am thankful that when the tides turned, hearts did not move from love - they moved the love.
I am thankful that romance left a great friendship.
I am thankful for that person and I hope there is a bit of this time of chaos that he finds thankful for me.
May you all be blessed by Limerance and know the power of glorious love and honor in duty.
There is the duty we have to our families, but there is also the duty we have to remaining true to ourselves. Some times I think the greatest love that can be found is between friends. Sometimes, those friends come about it from less than ideal situations. It is good to be loved and to love; even if it is not a romantic love.
I have always said and will always say, that I wish for happiness in all that I meet. I do not say this as lip service, but as an ideal of truth. I have courted a notion of my future and it was not one I was expecting to court, but I agreed to let it play out as it will. It has played out and I am so thankful for it. I wish I could express my thankfulness that I feel, but words are not quite the right ones.
I am thankful for the distraction of romance when I needed it.
I am thankful to see a person realize their true self and above all to honor it.
I am thankful that when the tides turned, hearts did not move from love - they moved the love.
I am thankful that romance left a great friendship.
I am thankful for that person and I hope there is a bit of this time of chaos that he finds thankful for me.
May you all be blessed by Limerance and know the power of glorious love and honor in duty.
Written By Gaspard
Oct. 5, 2019, 9:27 p.m.(12/17/1011 AR)
It feels strange to be back in Arx. A part of me wishes I didn't have to leave the Cloudspine again, but I know I have to be here to show support for my relatives. It's only been close to a year since I last stepped foot in the city, yet I feel I'm starting from scratch all over again. So many new faces to meet... I thank the gods I've arrived just before winter, though. The southern summers are unbearable!
Written By Norwood
Oct. 5, 2019, 8:10 p.m.(12/17/1011 AR)
When he was alive, and I a younger man, Duke Edmund asked me in for a quiet evening. During that evening we shared our difficulties in keeping our children safe.
Nothing has changed now that they are adults - except that now I cannot tell them to get out of the tree or to stop making a target of themselves. They are their own people.
Nothing has changed now that they are adults - except that now I cannot tell them to get out of the tree or to stop making a target of themselves. They are their own people.
Written By Arcadia
Oct. 5, 2019, 6:28 p.m.(12/17/1011 AR)
Jokes about Bastards are never funny.
Insinuating someone is pregnant with one in public, and how thrilled their family will be is not only insulting to the individual but also the family.
Some people should think twice before they speak.
Insinuating someone is pregnant with one in public, and how thrilled their family will be is not only insulting to the individual but also the family.
Some people should think twice before they speak.
Written By Jael
Oct. 5, 2019, 4:47 p.m.(12/17/1011 AR)
Relationship Note on Cassandra
We would love to see more of you. I know you have been busy but you are always welcome at the Manse.
Written By Monique
Oct. 5, 2019, 4:25 p.m.(12/17/1011 AR)
Something in carmine. In a red so bright and so deep that it makes blood look garish pale by comparison. The planning of a new gown gives me a thrill rivaled only by the thought of where I plan to wear it.
Written By Catalana
Oct. 5, 2019, 1:41 p.m.(12/16/1011 AR)
I am astounded and so pleased at how many came to a simple tea at the Kay the other night. I have however lost a bowl of trifle. I am almost positive who the thief is. If he brings it back, I won't name him or his flamboyant pumpkin colored outfit in the whites.
Next event, a ball on my husband's ship. I am so excited to show it off, I believe he may love the boat more than me. I should probably alert him to the fact I have commandeered his ship for the event.
Next event, a ball on my husband's ship. I am so excited to show it off, I believe he may love the boat more than me. I should probably alert him to the fact I have commandeered his ship for the event.
Written By Artur
Oct. 5, 2019, 1:32 p.m.(12/16/1011 AR)
It's been a strange period. Ever since I was young, I've always known that women were never my thing, but still, you feel some pressure. It's not something that society frowns on, after all, but it doesn't encourage it either. There is always an expectation, at least an imagined one, that you're supposed to pair off and beget.
I have always been fortunate. I have a large, loving family who has never tried to force any of those expectations on me. It's just one of the many reasons I love them all as much as I do.
Since I came to Arx, I've seen a lot of the young men my age pair off and do well, exactly that. There was no pressure on me to do so, but I built it up too much in my head. I decided I wanted to get it over and done with, preferably as soon as possible, with someone, anyone. That was wrong of me. I ended up treating people as a means to my end - literally. It was far from my crowning glory. If I ended up hurting anyone by that, I am genuinely sorry.
I feel like the clouds have parted though, and talking to my family and friends, I realised how many of the things I love I had let slip by the wayside in my single-minded pursuit of putting this task behind me. Gods, how wrong can someone be to see such a thing as a task to accomplish. Like mucking out a stable.
Anyway, I feel as though I am back to my old self. I am going to focus on the people and things I love and am genuinely passionate about, rather than trying to live up to an imagined standard. Maybe the right man will cross my path someday, and it will happen, but I'm in no big rush for it. Until then, I know there are other ways I can make my family proud and honour my house.
I have always been fortunate. I have a large, loving family who has never tried to force any of those expectations on me. It's just one of the many reasons I love them all as much as I do.
Since I came to Arx, I've seen a lot of the young men my age pair off and do well, exactly that. There was no pressure on me to do so, but I built it up too much in my head. I decided I wanted to get it over and done with, preferably as soon as possible, with someone, anyone. That was wrong of me. I ended up treating people as a means to my end - literally. It was far from my crowning glory. If I ended up hurting anyone by that, I am genuinely sorry.
I feel like the clouds have parted though, and talking to my family and friends, I realised how many of the things I love I had let slip by the wayside in my single-minded pursuit of putting this task behind me. Gods, how wrong can someone be to see such a thing as a task to accomplish. Like mucking out a stable.
Anyway, I feel as though I am back to my old self. I am going to focus on the people and things I love and am genuinely passionate about, rather than trying to live up to an imagined standard. Maybe the right man will cross my path someday, and it will happen, but I'm in no big rush for it. Until then, I know there are other ways I can make my family proud and honour my house.
Written By Vanora
Oct. 5, 2019, 12:46 p.m.(12/16/1011 AR)
Relationship Note on Tikva
The poem (or song?) in your last journal was absolutely beautiful.
Written By Rosalind
Oct. 5, 2019, 12:19 p.m.(12/16/1011 AR)
One week in the city---I have met some interesting people and have got caught up on a few of the going ons. I'm so glad to be of use and not just being a lazy layabout!
Written By Thea
Oct. 5, 2019, 10:46 a.m.(12/16/1011 AR)
Attending the Kennex tea party proved to be an interesting time. I should also mention, I'm quite excited, yes--you read that, excited, for my cousin and Dariel for they're upcoming marriage.
Written By Cassandra
Oct. 5, 2019, 9:55 a.m.(12/16/1011 AR)
Winter was almost my favorite month, but today I find myself a touch more melancholy than I allow myself. I am content in my work, in role, and in my duties. It fulfills me, and places a greater sense of accomplishment than I had anticipated. All well and good, but that is my work life, and when I reflect on a more personal level, there is a part of me that dearly misses home. And my family. I still carry the Laurent name, and I always will, but there is a feeling that with the life I have taken up now, I will understandably miss out on a great many things. Things I had cherished when I was a younger woman.
Were I to do it all over again, I would make no changes, I believe Gloria set me on this path, but that doesn't mean I cannot look back and wonder. If not for the fact that there are times I look at my office and note that it does feel colder than usual. It was personal duty to the gods that led me where I am, however I would think it can be allowed for me to miss my family.
If time allows, if it ever allows, I should spend some time with them.
Were I to do it all over again, I would make no changes, I believe Gloria set me on this path, but that doesn't mean I cannot look back and wonder. If not for the fact that there are times I look at my office and note that it does feel colder than usual. It was personal duty to the gods that led me where I am, however I would think it can be allowed for me to miss my family.
If time allows, if it ever allows, I should spend some time with them.
Written By Traherne
Oct. 5, 2019, 7:28 a.m.(12/16/1011 AR)
I'm feeling good again. Well, as good as an old soldier can, anyway. I woke up one morning and decided I wanted to make a suit of alaricite. Of course, I don't have enough of the stuff, but it'd be nice, wouldn't it? Maybe this year will offer up some opportunities. I have plenty of rubicund and a lot of good steel that needs some work, anyway. I should focus on that.
Written By Domonico
Oct. 5, 2019, 4:20 a.m.(12/16/1011 AR)
Let it be known for the record that I am absolutely thrilled by the upcoming marriages of my brother Lord Martino to Lady Kaia as well as my favourite second cousin Lady Miranda and Lord Dariel.
That being said, the pranks of the latter two are wearing me down.
That being said, the pranks of the latter two are wearing me down.
Written By Drusila
Oct. 5, 2019, 4:14 a.m.(12/16/1011 AR)
Relationship Note on Raven
"Make way or die."
I can see a flag flying high over a ship, a black heart held by a gauntlet with those words underneath it.
I can see a flag flying high over a ship, a black heart held by a gauntlet with those words underneath it.
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