Written By Valencia
March 11, 2018, 11:32 p.m.(5/6/1008 AR)
Last night, after so many years, I finally closed one chapter and started anew. It was both heartbreaking and yet freeing. A beautiful, long overdue step forward.
But I regret nothing. How could I? Everything good or ill that has happened has brought me to this place. And I would be no where else I think.
I do not know what will happen, but I know in my heart it is the right thing.
To those I love, family and dear friends. I love you more still. Know I will hold you dear until my dying day. Know that I wish you as much light, life, luck and love to last all your days and even after. To those who must go forth to fight for us, be strong. Know that you are loved and we wait to welcome you home and that we will do what me must to help and support you. That we will think on you every day and pray for your safe return.
To my golden lights in all this darkness. To my Northern Star. My beacon of hope and strength. Those I hold most dear. Hold fast. Keep Heart. Know I am here and always will be. Come home to me soon. We have so much yet to to do.
With light, luck and love... as always, as ever.
~~~~~<~<@
But I regret nothing. How could I? Everything good or ill that has happened has brought me to this place. And I would be no where else I think.
I do not know what will happen, but I know in my heart it is the right thing.
To those I love, family and dear friends. I love you more still. Know I will hold you dear until my dying day. Know that I wish you as much light, life, luck and love to last all your days and even after. To those who must go forth to fight for us, be strong. Know that you are loved and we wait to welcome you home and that we will do what me must to help and support you. That we will think on you every day and pray for your safe return.
To my golden lights in all this darkness. To my Northern Star. My beacon of hope and strength. Those I hold most dear. Hold fast. Keep Heart. Know I am here and always will be. Come home to me soon. We have so much yet to to do.
With light, luck and love... as always, as ever.
~~~~~<~<@
Written By Rinel
March 11, 2018, 11:25 p.m.(5/6/1008 AR)
Another debate--another dispute underpinned by theological differences. Sometimes I think the clearest evidence of the Gods is that They continue to hold our Faith together, despite those who would depart from it if given the chance.
Written By Esoka
March 11, 2018, 11:08 p.m.(5/6/1008 AR)
I want to write about getting married. I've sat down to do it many times over the past fortnight, but everything I put down on paper seems too sugary or too simple when I read it back to myself. Maybe this will be, too, but it's very important to me, so it's time I get it down before I'm to march Northward. If it's not said perfectly, I guess that's fitting.
The virtues of Limerance have been ones I've always felt clear on how to aspire to. My bonds with my kin and tribe, and later my oaths to the Rivens, gave my life and service purpose. I don't always feel I'm the best knight, but the vows I took when I became one shape how I conduct myself as a warrior in ways I think are good and right. I have always honored the fidelity of Limerance, and even felt Him as the god of love, for some of my oaths bound me to things I care for deeply.
When others sent prayers of romantic love to Him, though, I always privately thought it rather silly. I didn't think one had much to do with true fidelity or the more powerful things that held my oaths. What I thought I felt as 'love' as a teenage girl I now look back on as shallow and embarrassing. Over the years I've known passion and good friendship with many of the men who've shared my bed, but it never held my soul beyond that. My life seemed full enough without all that.
I don't know when I began to want more with Calaudrin Estardes. It feels a thing that happened so slowly I did not realize it had wrapped itself around the shape of my life until it had changed it in ways I couldn't undo. Did not want to undo. We've been lovers for over two years now, since the Siege of Arx, and in that time he's become one of the best friends I've ever had, one of the sturdiest soldiers I'd ever want beside me in battle, and a source of comfort and steadiness when everything else around me seems wrong. He's brave and funny and decent in a way that's rarer among men than I think he knows. When I picture my life two years from now, or twenty, I cannot see it without him in it. When I picture the children I want, I can't see their features without pieces of him in them. Even if they get his nose. I happen to think it's rather handsome.
We aren't highborn and we know no pressures to have heirs or cement alliances great houses and all of that. We're just common people and it matters to none but us if we ever marry or not. When he asked me, though, I felt very powerfully that I DID want the oaths. I wanted to honor the fidelity we shared, that was passion but so many other things, too. It is as important to me as my vows of knighthood or my vows to my liege Countess, and I wanted to give it a place equal to them in my own heart.
And, so, I'm married now. I'm happy in it so far, and I think we're doing all right by each other. I promise I'll uphold the vows I've taken as best my heart can.
The virtues of Limerance have been ones I've always felt clear on how to aspire to. My bonds with my kin and tribe, and later my oaths to the Rivens, gave my life and service purpose. I don't always feel I'm the best knight, but the vows I took when I became one shape how I conduct myself as a warrior in ways I think are good and right. I have always honored the fidelity of Limerance, and even felt Him as the god of love, for some of my oaths bound me to things I care for deeply.
When others sent prayers of romantic love to Him, though, I always privately thought it rather silly. I didn't think one had much to do with true fidelity or the more powerful things that held my oaths. What I thought I felt as 'love' as a teenage girl I now look back on as shallow and embarrassing. Over the years I've known passion and good friendship with many of the men who've shared my bed, but it never held my soul beyond that. My life seemed full enough without all that.
I don't know when I began to want more with Calaudrin Estardes. It feels a thing that happened so slowly I did not realize it had wrapped itself around the shape of my life until it had changed it in ways I couldn't undo. Did not want to undo. We've been lovers for over two years now, since the Siege of Arx, and in that time he's become one of the best friends I've ever had, one of the sturdiest soldiers I'd ever want beside me in battle, and a source of comfort and steadiness when everything else around me seems wrong. He's brave and funny and decent in a way that's rarer among men than I think he knows. When I picture my life two years from now, or twenty, I cannot see it without him in it. When I picture the children I want, I can't see their features without pieces of him in them. Even if they get his nose. I happen to think it's rather handsome.
We aren't highborn and we know no pressures to have heirs or cement alliances great houses and all of that. We're just common people and it matters to none but us if we ever marry or not. When he asked me, though, I felt very powerfully that I DID want the oaths. I wanted to honor the fidelity we shared, that was passion but so many other things, too. It is as important to me as my vows of knighthood or my vows to my liege Countess, and I wanted to give it a place equal to them in my own heart.
And, so, I'm married now. I'm happy in it so far, and I think we're doing all right by each other. I promise I'll uphold the vows I've taken as best my heart can.
Written By Athaur
March 11, 2018, 10:55 p.m.(5/6/1008 AR)
Dearest Riva,
Know that soon we will have what we need to rebuild all that was lost, in this you have my solemn vow, as always, you all are in my heart and my mind. Should this work somehow make its way there, do check in on Marie for me.
"Flow like water. Never be contained."
Know that soon we will have what we need to rebuild all that was lost, in this you have my solemn vow, as always, you all are in my heart and my mind. Should this work somehow make its way there, do check in on Marie for me.
"Flow like water. Never be contained."
Written By Eithne
March 11, 2018, 10:54 p.m.(5/6/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Ferrando
Thanks.
Written By Eithne
March 11, 2018, 10:54 p.m.(5/6/1008 AR)
I completely forgot to mention that the Thornburn and Artiglio families have grown by one; One boisterous bundle who has taken up a good portion of my time these days and were it not for my "village", I wouldn't know what to do. She is by far my greatest creation and the most difficult job I've ever had. But, she's all mine...and her father's, too.
Written By Eithne
March 11, 2018, 10:47 p.m.(5/6/1008 AR)
Well, it has been far too long since I've come to write a journal entry or two. People have been wondering where I've been, what I've been doing, who have I been doing it with. I can honestly say the last question is a bit intrusive but I've been working, as usual. Nothing can keep me out of the forge or away from the flames for too long. Especially with all this talk of preparing for war, the Fire and Brimstone has seen more than it's fair share of soldiers lately and my focus is making sure their armor is top quality because I'd like to see their faces coming through my door once the fighting has ended. It's also a mighty fine time to make my way to Jayus' shrine. Been feeling inspired lately.
Written By Athaur
March 11, 2018, 10:40 p.m.(5/6/1008 AR)
To my people and those who read this,
The city has been most welcoming to me thus far, I appreciate the hospitality and generosity shown to me and my family. It is quite the change in transitioning from a clan Chieftain to a Count, should I offend anyone, you have my sincerest apologies. To my people, know that all I do, I do for you. As I have worked beside you and fought for you, know that I still do those things, only not always in Riva.
The city has been most welcoming to me thus far, I appreciate the hospitality and generosity shown to me and my family. It is quite the change in transitioning from a clan Chieftain to a Count, should I offend anyone, you have my sincerest apologies. To my people, know that all I do, I do for you. As I have worked beside you and fought for you, know that I still do those things, only not always in Riva.
Written By Sabella
March 11, 2018, 10:18 p.m.(5/6/1008 AR)
This is getting ridiculous.
Written By Calypso
March 11, 2018, 10:11 p.m.(5/6/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Sparte
The Salon's debate series concluded with 'Why we fight'. A reflective debate on war, combat and the consequences that come with them. It was an interesting topic to discuss so close to a united compact engagement. Listening to all the reasons why we fight and what motivates people is absolutely fascinating.
Thank you, Master Sparte, for getting these debates together. It was delightful to host this one in particular with you.
Thank you, Master Sparte, for getting these debates together. It was delightful to host this one in particular with you.
Written By Caith
March 11, 2018, 10:08 p.m.(5/6/1008 AR)
My world view was shaken -- everything seemed so much darker and grim. Maybe it still is but I am carried upward with renewed purpose. There is darkness, yes, but the light shall drive it away.
Written By Galen
March 11, 2018, 9:57 p.m.(5/6/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Luca
Book,
It has come to my attention that a certain few comments have been made about a person I may or may not know...His most Meaty Majesty, I shall pass message along to him that people would like to see him.
Who knows, he might just show up at the next party. Oh and Luca, I appreciate you.
It has come to my attention that a certain few comments have been made about a person I may or may not know...His most Meaty Majesty, I shall pass message along to him that people would like to see him.
Who knows, he might just show up at the next party. Oh and Luca, I appreciate you.
Written By Galen
March 11, 2018, 9:50 p.m.(5/6/1008 AR)
Book,
I won...This may well be my shortest journal ever...No one needs to ask any questions, just know that I won.
I won...This may well be my shortest journal ever...No one needs to ask any questions, just know that I won.
Written By Rue
March 11, 2018, 9:44 p.m.(5/6/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Jeffeth
I still remember when we were children, how sad I was to see you go. Every passing Knight of Solace was given a death glare! Not that I was ever very intimidating, 'specially not at that age.
To see you again was a delight. It was as if nothing had changed even after all of those years past, as if you'd left a day ago and just returned home early. You're still my cheerful, bellowing friend.
And you give the best hugs! Really makes a girl feel appreciated to get picked up and spun around.
To see you again was a delight. It was as if nothing had changed even after all of those years past, as if you'd left a day ago and just returned home early. You're still my cheerful, bellowing friend.
And you give the best hugs! Really makes a girl feel appreciated to get picked up and spun around.
Written By Galen
March 11, 2018, 9:42 p.m.(5/6/1008 AR)
Book,
So it has been an interesting time as of late, preparing to ship out and squaring away loose ends, both personal and professional. Since becoming Warlord I have started restructuring the Thrax military some with Victus approval, and it is working out wonderfully, we have more engagement and more willing to serve than I have seen in quite some time.
Once we return, well, for those of us who do return, we will continue down this path. Something that I feel like I should note, and something I want all of Thrax to know. It is my sworn duty to see to all of our safety and security, this is the duty I have accepted, the burden I will carry for our House. Please Thrax, do not hesitate to come to me with your needs and your fears.
So it has been an interesting time as of late, preparing to ship out and squaring away loose ends, both personal and professional. Since becoming Warlord I have started restructuring the Thrax military some with Victus approval, and it is working out wonderfully, we have more engagement and more willing to serve than I have seen in quite some time.
Once we return, well, for those of us who do return, we will continue down this path. Something that I feel like I should note, and something I want all of Thrax to know. It is my sworn duty to see to all of our safety and security, this is the duty I have accepted, the burden I will carry for our House. Please Thrax, do not hesitate to come to me with your needs and your fears.
Written By Harmon
March 11, 2018, 9:41 p.m.(5/6/1008 AR)
Three hours have passed. Cat is on lap. Cannot move without waking up cat. Must not wake up cat. Test of endurance.
Written By Luis
March 11, 2018, 9:22 p.m.(5/6/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Perrach
Does that mean you are looking for honest answers?
Does it matter why anyone fights? The reasons are often widely varied and the answers sometimes even discouraging, but forgive this simple soldier when I say that I honestly do not care why people fight, in so long as when there is a need for them to do so, they stand, and they fight.
If people need a reason, let them have their reasons. Philosophers and those of much greater mental acumen than I can debate and discuss such things, though I also realize that you were not in the slightest putting down anyone for their reason, or calling anyone out, I merely note that sometimes it is easier to just accept that people have a reason and leave it at that.
Does it matter why anyone fights? The reasons are often widely varied and the answers sometimes even discouraging, but forgive this simple soldier when I say that I honestly do not care why people fight, in so long as when there is a need for them to do so, they stand, and they fight.
If people need a reason, let them have their reasons. Philosophers and those of much greater mental acumen than I can debate and discuss such things, though I also realize that you were not in the slightest putting down anyone for their reason, or calling anyone out, I merely note that sometimes it is easier to just accept that people have a reason and leave it at that.
Written By Perrach
March 11, 2018, 9:19 p.m.(5/6/1008 AR)
Why do we fight? Everyone has their reasons. Gettin honest answers comes to mind.
Written By Luis
March 11, 2018, 8:58 p.m.(5/6/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Peri
When one approaches a subject with an Igniseri referencing the antics of another Igniseri, the resulting conversation is most likely to be filled with laughing and subtle familiar rivalry. Quietly will plans be made to top whatever the last relation had accomplished, and so it is that stranger and stranger things have come about. Lady Peri, I assure you that the wonderful time that you had with my sister shall be a fond memory, though in the same breath I shall encourage you to branch out and enjoy the company of all Igniseri as we are each unto ourselves a force of... well many things, each unique and unequivocally sublime in our methods. Though there is the one whom is rather blunt, but we won't talk about them... They're working on it.
A lovely evening regardless and I only wished to share with you that plans have been made for further, larger gatherings and I do hope that you will take one of our invites.
A lovely evening regardless and I only wished to share with you that plans have been made for further, larger gatherings and I do hope that you will take one of our invites.
Written By Peri
March 11, 2018, 8:48 p.m.(5/6/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Emily
Fun trouble.
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