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Written By Jeffeth

March 24, 2020, 12:21 p.m.(12/25/1012 AR)

I feel as if this is a good time to remind the Compact of my White, I wrote some time ago.

If anyone has questions about me or my decisions, I am always willing to field them. I will educate and inform as best I am able, to the point where it infringes on someone else's private information. That I will not disclose. But as it pertains to me, I am always willing to spread knowledge I may have been fortunate enough to gain. Any who are curious are encouraged to write to me. Though in these times I ask for patience, my mind is scattered, even more than it usually is. It may take a few messengers to remind me, but I will do my best to explain everything and anything that I myself know of. One need only ask.

Written By Svana

March 24, 2020, 10:25 a.m.(12/25/1012 AR)

Relationship Note on Jules

It was just one time, what's the worst that could happen? No need to act like your life is flashing before your eyes, Jules.

Written By Iseulet

March 24, 2020, 5:24 a.m.(12/25/1012 AR)

As an aside, to the monsters out there that dye flowers? You aren't fooling anyone.

I think I'm going to write another book, inspired by this rant and the Flower Cipher I see floating about:

The Hater's Guide To Sending Passive Aggressive Flowers.

Actually, it's almost finished.

Written By Preston

March 24, 2020, 5:20 a.m.(12/25/1012 AR)

Relationship Note on Arianna

Sir Jeffeth and his challenge are a personal matter he undertakes, not an action he takes as representative of the Faith. The Faith does not duel over disputes of theology or the commands of the Gods - the Faith does not offer simply an opinion on the Will of the Gods, the Dominus speaks as Their voice. Beyond question from the children of the Faith. This challenge is a matter between the two of you and your champions. If you have an issue with his behaviour, Sir Jeffeth answers to a Legate and to the Dominus as all of us Godsworn do. He does not answer to a noblewoman, no matter their rank.

You can try to make it something larger, perhaps to cover your own embarassment, that's anyone's right to make these choices. But I would advise against seeking to make grand statements on behalf of Pravus against the Faith unless Archduchess Belladonna is willing to publicly stand by and make them too. And to attempt to create discontent and disquiet as we face the threats we do, well. That would paint an unfortunate picture.

Written By Iseulet

March 24, 2020, 5:15 a.m.(12/25/1012 AR)

I have never liked sunflowers for reasons that are totally opaque to me. I can see why they are associated with sunshine and openness and loveliness, much like how butterflies are often mistaken for something beautiful.

Have you ever truly seen a butterfly? Leave the wings out of it and it's a wretched and hairy and twitchy body with too many darting legs and antennae. (Moths are far more pleasant, with predictable legs, fat fuzzy-in-a-cute-way body, and lovely powdery wings in far less gaudy colors).

A sunflower is too big and heavy by at least half. It reminds me of a severed head of a blonde man. No plant should contain so much... plant. The stem is fuzzy, which is disgusting and the central cluster is a hypnotizing clot of spirals that resembles a blood shot eye vainly attempting to look cheerful. It's thick and sinister, but tries to disguise itself as something pleasing to the eye like a dead woman whose smiling mouth is a jagged slash of blood and lipstick.

To the sunflower: I do not accept your false and charmless attempts at levity. You are a bad plant, and you have no right to grow as tall as you do. I am a human. I stand above you on the food chain. How dare you grow as tall as me.

No, Scholar do /not/ ask me about carnations.

No woman, I can assure you, has ever happily received a carnation as either a corsage or as part of a bouquet.

It has confirmed for her every doubt she ever had about you. “A carnation,” she says brightly, while in her head she has already left you for another.

I will not insult you by going into details. If you cannot immediately guess why carnations are unbearable, there is no hope for you.

Written By Jules

March 24, 2020, 2:47 a.m.(12/25/1012 AR)

I am afraid I made a very poor decision tonight. Time will tell but I'll just have to pretend like I know nothing about it I think.

Written By Vanora

March 24, 2020, 12:58 a.m.(12/24/1012 AR)

Relationship Note on Juniper

I had the pleasure of working with Sister Juniper when she was still Juniper Whisper. Even then her warmth was like a beacon, and her skill at helping two noble houses bury their feuding and look towards the future together will always be appreciated and remembered. When I enjoy the company of Margot Tyde, whose friendship and support have been such a source of strength, I will remember Sister Juniper's role in helping make it possible.

It is fitting that there was a greater path for her, and that in walking it she brought so much to so many.

Written By Brigid

March 23, 2020, 11:32 p.m.(12/24/1012 AR)

Had a meeting with Sir Amund yesterday, in it perhaps unbeknown to him, he solidified my resolve - led me to a decision that I have been battling with for quite some time. With everything that has happened, the showering of hope and the rain come to cleanse a parched land in need of goodness, it is time for me to venture out. While I did not know her and have truly only just learned of her connection - I have Sister Juniper to thank.

Grief and longing can sometimes bring out the worst, perhaps revealing how deep the wound truly goes. But not understanding fully the gravity of a situation from others can tend to twist otherwise good intentions.There is a darkness that still lurks, strings that still need to be cut - this is not the time to fray for it reveals a weakness we can not afford to show.

I hope that my search yields answers and that I can return in enough time to see both Katherine and Rane wed.

Written By Hamish

March 23, 2020, 9:57 p.m.(12/24/1012 AR)

Relationship Note on Arianna

I'm honestly fascinated to hear more about this nepotism.

I'm told I got the position of Archlector of our Queen of Endings because She put in a good word for me.

I suppose that _is_ a little preferential.

Written By Miranda

March 23, 2020, 9:16 p.m.(12/24/1012 AR)

Relationship Note on Fecundo

Nothing beats an evening in the Black Fox with my brother, Prince Fecundo Valardin, and my favorite second-cousin, Admiral Domonico Malvici.

Clearly, without me in their lives, neither man would be where he is today.

...

Tee hee!

(Psst, I'm pregnant. I can say anything I want and they can't do anything about it!)

Written By Amari

March 23, 2020, 9:02 p.m.(12/24/1012 AR)

Sometimes a little compassion and humility goes a lot further than being right, especially when one is fighting from the back of a giant blazing wrong tottering on rickety legs of ignorance and pride. It's usually smarter to leap off while you're still able and walk away with some dignity intact, rather than ride it straight into the ground.

Written By Cambria

March 23, 2020, 8:13 p.m.(12/24/1012 AR)

I am interested in the truth.

While I would love to weigh in on certain current affairs, I must admit that I do not know enough to do so. I do have plenty of questions, though. Yet for some inexplicable reason I feel as though I will never have any answers.

Should I congratulate myself for a job well done in the mean time?

I think not.

Accolades belong to other people.

Written By Thea

March 23, 2020, 7:39 p.m.(12/24/1012 AR)

With the help of some investigators, I finally had a break through. I am grateful. Time for other preperations..

Written By Arianna

March 23, 2020, 1:56 p.m.(12/23/1012 AR)

Relationship Note on Jeffeth

Let me make this quite clear for anyone who can't follow what Grandmaster Jeffeth Bayweather has just done with his Challenge. By naming Lord Oberion Thornweave as his Champion he has stated in no uncertain terms that he entrusts his honor, and by extension that of the Knights of Solace and the Faith of the Pantheon, into the hands of a vile, Shav'arvani chieftain who is wanted in Telmar lands for the mass murder of the Compact's citizens.

He has not only stated through this action that he doesn't believe a single member of the Champion's guild OR the Compact is worthy of defending his honor but he has entrusted it and his reputation on a war criminal. This doesn't speak well of the Grandmaster, his order, his mentors in the Faith or the Faith Militant at all. This is an atrocity of the highest order when it comes to our great civilization which is an honor based society.

Do I think he or the Faith will suffer consequences for this? Absolutely not.

Am I afraid to face this war criminal here in the great city of Arx to resolve such a petty issue? Absolutely fucking not.

I eagerly await the resolution of this and will continue to levy every asset, word, resource and ally at my disposal to disperse the nepotism that corrupts our Church. We of Pravus do not turn a blind eye to the rot that festers. Let that be known.

Written By Esme

March 23, 2020, 11:27 a.m.(12/23/1012 AR)

To those that might read this.

You are loved. You are so loved. When you feel in your pit of despair, it is simply the winter of our hearts. However, like the seasons winter will give way to the abundance of spring. The empty coldness will melt. There will be tears like there will be rain, but they will lay the path to your flowers and your garden growing and becoming even more beautiful because of the pain. You will get on the other side of it.

Grief is hard. It seems like we are surrounded daily by it. People grieve in their own ways, if it is not your way; it might feel wrong and not at all genuine. Emotions are hard for the best of us and those that have been wounded by our own hearts and deeds; even moreso. One person may cry until there feels there is not an ounce of water left in their being. One may laugh until they are unable to breathe. Others may act as if nothing has happened. Some even, act out. This acting out can be cutting comments. It can be the attempt to cut at the very grief that surrounds them and the people they pretend not to care for. The hardest step is knowing what kind of grief the other is feeling and to allow them what they need to get through it. That need could be emotional, it could be distance, it could be anger, violence, or even more sexual of feeling alive. Do not judge it, I ask that of you.

As well, our paths are all interwoven through time and through each other. Our paths touch each other with every interaction, but they might not stay bound together. We make choices and while we hope we make the right ones, we are not walking in perfection. Not even the Gods can claim perfection. However, our choices and and our paths are just that - ours. We cannot suffer our friends and our families for the choice of one. We can bid them to help offer guidance to one we feel is misguided, but you cannot hold them for another's choice. Just as you cannot be held for that. They may affect us and we may make our choice how to act. We are beholden only to our own integrity. I ask only that before words are said and left there forever to be unsaid, that you think. You try to act in love. You try to act in compassion.

I have spoken before in the heat of anger. It does not happen often. It has happened and the only regrets in my life happen in the moments that exist after that. I wish no one to suffer regrets. Be true to your path. Be true to yourself and allow others to be true to their hearts as well. May the Gods bless your souls and bring you calm in the days that come.

Written By Talia

March 23, 2020, 11:16 a.m.(12/23/1012 AR)

Commoners have limited ways to express their displeasure with nobility. While I appreciate your sentiment, Grandmaster, but until someone from Pravus proves me wrong and publishes even a word of censure against Arianna Pravus, I will continue to use the one tool available to me, the ability to control who comes and buys from my shop, to seek to ensure values that I hold are at least held by my customers. And that my customers aren't supporting someone who would spit on commoners or the recently dead, for a laugh.

Written By Lucita

March 23, 2020, 11:15 a.m.(12/23/1012 AR)

Relationship Note on Eleyna

In 1008 Archduchess Eleyna created 'The Order of the White Lily'. It was to have 13 living members plus 2 who were recognized for serving bravely at Setarco and lost their lives there. This order was not a reward or recognition of service during war, it was a charge, a plea to help the Lyceum stay strong, to protect it, and to help build and maintain bridges between houses. Each had their own strengths, and varied abilities, and differences. Some embraced the idea, some thoughtful and considering it, some skeptic but all agreed to work quietly, in their own way for the betterment and safety of our homes. There are no formal meetings or gatherings, just those collars and memories to guide us and our consciences as we try to keep our word.

To me the White Lily Watchtowers seem to embody that concept, working together, maintaining communication between houses and helping strengthen and protect our homes. I am glad to have been a part of it.

Written By Preston

March 23, 2020, 8:55 a.m.(12/23/1012 AR)

Relationship Note on Juniper

Sister Juniper was a Godsworn and dedicated to the Gods and to the well being of all the faithful. If you know nothing else about her, the that should be sufficient to mourn her passing.

I did not know her well, but it seems the nature of her passing - helping so many - is in keeping with what I had heard of her, and is in the best traditions of the Faith. May each thought of her be a blessing to those who knew her, each tear shed a memorial to her impact.

Written By Thea

March 23, 2020, 7:06 a.m.(12/23/1012 AR)

You say Huntsman. I say murderer.....All I'm saying on that subject.

Written By Porter

March 23, 2020, 6:40 a.m.(12/23/1012 AR)

To every person that's reached out to Duke-Reagent Aethan, Lady Zoey and myself in regards to Lord Ian, thank you. Your support is tremendous and it's comforting to know how well loved he is. My brother is holding a meeting to begin organizing a search and rescue. I would be happy to forward that information to anyone interested.

Except for Lady Colette Laurent. You're not invited. Do NOT show up.

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