Written By Thea
Feb. 13, 2020, 10:32 a.m.(10.029549851190476/2.6547916666666667/1012.7524624875992 AR)
Written By Sydney
Feb. 13, 2020, 10:21 a.m.(10.028959573412699/2.621736111111111/1012.7524132977844 AR)
Part of me cannot help but equate the suffering I see with the suffering I experienced, and there's ever a dark, ugly side of my thoughts that cannot help but think,
'That's terrible. But if it happened, or more usually when it happened to me, to mine, to those around me, none cared then.'
I logically know this is a selfish feeling. Suffering must not be compared. Trauma is not a race one wins by experiencing the most, and pain is no less for those who experience, even if you reckon you've tasted worse.
Sometimes the logic doesn't win over the bile in my heart, and I find myself feeling and saying wretched things, because of What Ifs, What Abouts, and Remember Whens.
I need to be better about letting logic win.
Written By Arcadia
Feb. 13, 2020, 3:34 a.m.(10.008803323412698/1.4929861111111111/1012.7507336102844 AR)
Relationship Note on Tomwell
I should of known something was different when my letter returned unopened. I'm sorry. I wish i had come to visit some more. I wished I could know where you are now.
I will miss you and your unending kindness.
Written By Dianna
Feb. 12, 2020, 10:59 p.m.(9.995170717592593/35.729560185185186/1012.7495975597994 AR)
Because, as I recall, I've gone after /three/.
And all, yet, were dead by the time we found them.
Perhaps this is why they're /dying/: Because no one cares enough to look until it's too damned late.
Written By Dianna
Feb. 12, 2020, 10:18 p.m.(9.993119212962963/35.61467592592593/1012.7494266010802 AR)
Relationship Note on Tomwell
I'm not well, and I won't pretend to be well.
Yes, maybe it's beautiful to some, maybe it's lovely and romantic and so many other things --
But it's devastating, to me.
And I'm jealous and possessive and I want him back, because I didn't know him well enough, but knew him well enough to know:
Tomwell was /incredible/.
I want him back.
I'm not well with this, at all.
Written By Rysen
Feb. 12, 2020, 8:01 p.m.(9.986304976851851/35.233078703703704/1012.748858748071 AR)
Relationship Note on Gunnar
Written By Jules
Feb. 12, 2020, 5:21 p.m.(9.978386656746032/34.789652777777775/1012.7481988880621 AR)
Written By Tanith
Feb. 12, 2020, 5:13 p.m.(9.977971643518519/34.766412037037036/1012.7481643036266 AR)
Written By Tanith
Feb. 12, 2020, 5:11 p.m.(9.977903439153438/34.76259259259259/1012.7481586199294 AR)
Written By Thomas
Feb. 12, 2020, 4:13 p.m.(9.97501529431217/34.60085648148148/1012.7479179411927 AR)
Sometimes.
I must find solace in the heat of my conviction, that this cruelty can be our crucible and in the end this particular twist will be redeemed by the choices that came of it.
Written By Tanith
Feb. 12, 2020, 3:58 p.m.(9.974292328042328/34.56037037037037/1012.7478576940035 AR)
Written By Iliana
Feb. 12, 2020, 12:58 p.m.(9.96531994047619/34.05791666666667/1012.7471099950396 AR)
Relationship Note on Talia
Goodwoman Talia Baseborn is widely known for her gift with fashion, for the heirloom gowns she has worked with so many Houses of the Compact to see made. In House Leary, she'll be remembered for the bars of alaricite she gifted me with that I might finally retire Eagle's Talon, or more likely for the weapon that alaricite becomes in fair short order.
Valitina is already proposing design suggestions.
Written By Shard
Feb. 12, 2020, 12:47 p.m.(9.964812334656084/34.02949074074074/1012.7470676945546 AR)
Fine, but frankly, I wish they'd fucking stop.
Written By Mabelle
Feb. 12, 2020, 6:13 a.m.(9.945263723544974/32.93476851851852/1012.7454386436287 AR)
Written By Sabine
Feb. 11, 2020, 11:05 p.m.(9.924024057539683/31.74534722222222/1012.7436686714616 AR)
Would that I left Arx smiling but I find myself incapable of late. I am triumphant... but I cannot celebrate. I have no words to describe this mood I've fallen into. The only words I have are "I do not like this". And I don't.
Written By Esme
Feb. 11, 2020, 8:07 p.m.(9.915308779761904/31.257291666666667/1012.7429423983135 AR)
I have enjoyed reading of others adventures though.
Remember, you are all so very loved.
Written By Esme
Feb. 11, 2020, 8:07 p.m.(9.915307953042328/31.25724537037037/1012.7429423294202 AR)
I have enjoyed reading of others adventures though.
Remember, you are all so very loved.
Written By Strozza
Feb. 11, 2020, 7:55 p.m.(9.914685846560847/31.22240740740741/1012.7428904872135 AR)
Relationship Note on Selene
Written By Torian
Feb. 11, 2020, 7:48 p.m.(9.914372933201058/31.20488425925926/1012.7428644111001 AR)
Relationship Note on Mayir
That is fair enough. We /have/ achieved heights that even many Mercantiles have not.
But look at it this way: The Cullers will be known as Arx's premier marine logistics provider. It would be damaging to our reputation to NOT have three caravels to meet our clients' needs.
So don't hate us; hire us.
Messengers always welcome.
Written By Dianna
Feb. 11, 2020, 5:13 p.m.(9.803031994047618/24.969791666666666/1012.7335859995039 AR)
Particularly as I very much [REDACTED] this - though it's somewhat nice, the idea of [REDACTED] you, seeing how well you actually understand my words, my meanings, my intent.
I wonder what you'd think if we started dribbling [REDACTED], if you'd find yourself stronger from the effort or so very much weaker.
Some still think they're safer in [REDACTED].
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